Laughing Brudda

His visit was brief, an overnight.

I loved him for driving hours to reach me,

proudly introduced him to the cool housemates.

I zinged with fierceness for his awkward, vulnerable

pleasing young man energy.

The front room to ourselves,

we sat at opposite ends of the window seat

windows open to orchard, highway,

spoke of some twisted piece of home,

laughed.  The way only the two of us did.

Breathlessly, close to choking, wheezing,

gasping, hurting, spent again and again.

How unladylike I must have appeared,

Our bodies shook loose, freed, jackel babies hideous howling,

teeth shredding that sharp past,

piercing it to the spot.


Bullygirl (#1)

The bathroom was brutal that afternoon.  She couldn’t see

past the the small group of girls in front of her,

their snarling flapping mouths.

Heavy swinging doors blocked by a small crowd

of lanky twelve-year-old selves.  She pressed herself

back hard against the dank

flatgreen wall, flooded by their

furnace tongues, their pungent eyes.

“Did you start yet?

Did you start your period yet?”

The question didn’t compute somehow.

The churning, the undertow, the growling

teeth did not fit the words.  She couldn’t

make sense of it – the fierce sounds

bustling her into a smaller tighter corner of her body.

The shock question hissing at her.

The dull lineoleum floor impenetrable, feebling her.

Should they be so teethy about this? So restless,

in clanking chain, so foamy in their gather?

Unable to interpret,

to see what they required,

she littled as far from their seeping force

as clammy walls allowed.

Chisled by their laser lips, her mind

damping down, laming itself, closing off,

she burrowed in wide-eyed busted open slappidy


Chowed down on it,

incorporated the ragged minutes,

undulated her world view.

Absorbed the deranged mouths dumbly,


masts lowered,

eyes bent.

Titles Maybe…

Earth R Us

13 Ways to Look at the Earth

7 tips to survive a dreaded social event

7 ways to finesse a  ”

7 ways to handle ”

7 ways to Survive  ”

Seven Meditation Tips

Work Like Nobody’s Watching

Elderly Women in Trailer Parks     :)*******

We Don’t Need No Stinking Birthdays

Binge Thinking        (Grapev)

Going for Broke

Tit for Tat

Dangerous Neighborhood

Never Now

Seven Ways to Handle Christmas Dinner with Family

Positive Pitching

You Are Your Own Expert

Mothership of Mine

The Power of Maybe

If I Was in Syria (or ?) Right at This Moment

Difficult Times

Any Port in a Storm  (aa)



Things I wonder

Do pacemakers and pulled teeth/old crowns get recycled?

Do salvage yards for mobile homes exist?

Is there any market for Knock Knock jokes?

The high costs of dental work.

Are flat roofs worth the required maintenance?

Do noir crime novelists exist in Korea and Vietnam and the Philipines and Bali?  China?

What percentage of the planet is landfill?

How might the planet survive the most severe impact of humans?

How fences and walls affect the “physics” of sound.

What ultimately happens to old or no longer used email accounts or other “documentation” on the web/internet?

If I wanted to create a map of the world that indicated the amount of “shed blood” by country would the entire globe be dark red?  Drip?














Good Books & Addictive Authors


Refugio They Named You Wrong  by Susan Clark Schofield

Nowhere Else on Earth  by Josephine Humphreys

Duplicate Keys by Jane Smiley

Songs of the Humpback Whale by Jodie Picoult

The Monk Downstairs  by Tim Farrington

Anthem for a Reluctant Prophet by Joanne Proulx

Lynda La Plante

Ken Bruen

Most Scandinavian Crime novelists

Peter Taylor?  (Australian)

Dennis Lehane

Michael Nava

James Lee Burke

Tana French


Spirituality of the Body by Alexander Lowen

How We Die by Sheldon Nuland



Films & Actors that Boggled my Mind

Heath Ledger in Brokeback Mountain

Joe the King

Christian Bale in Empire of the Sun

Europa Europa

Sean of the Living Dead

Bad News Bears

Heath Ledger in Monster’s Ball

To Kill a Mockingbird

Old Yeller

Philip Seymour Hoffman in Fabulous!

Chloe Sevigny in trans tv series?

The Birds

Children of a Lesser God

Horror film I saw as a kid about a girl locked in her school at night with some man tracking her through the building

Irma La Douce

River Phoenix as a kid in Stand By Me?


Daniel Day Lewis in My Left Foot

Madeline Stowe in Blind?


Vince in Return to Rangoon?

Brad Pitt in Money Ball

Female Perversions

Jessica Lange in Francis?

Natalie Wood in This Property is Condemned?


Richard Gere in An Officer and a Gentleman

Jeff Bridges & Michele Phillips in Fabulous Baker Boys

Ellen Barkin in Sea of Love

Nicole Kidman in The Paperboy

Matthew Mchonoghy ?? in The Paperboy

Elizabeth Taylor in Suddenly Last Summe

Meryl Streep in Out of Africa

Everyone in The Wire TV series

The 2 Jasons in Brotherhood TV series

Member of the Wedding

East of Eden

Zeitgeist – documentary

Rivers, Lakes and Tides – documentary



Audiobooks & Narrators still with me

All the Pretty Horses by Cormac McCarthy. Narrated by Brad Pitt.

Sea Biscuit by Laura Hillenbrand.  Narrated by Campbell Scott.

Cell by Stephen King.  Narrated by Campbell Scott.

The Bottoms by Joe Lansdale.  Narrated by Don Jellerson.

The Help by Kathryn Stockett. Narrated by Bahni Turpin, Octavia Spencer, Jenna Lamia, Cassandra Campbell.

Any James Lee Burke titles narrated by Will Patton.

The Given Day by Dennis Lehane.  Narrated by Michael Boatwright.

Prodigal Summer written & narrated by Barbara Kingsolver.

The Story of Edgar Sawtelle by David Wroblewski.  Narrated by Richard Poe.

Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd.  Narrated by Jenna Lamia.

Three Day Road by Joseph Boyden. Narrated by James Jenner, Ali Ahn ?

The Shining by Stephen King.  Narrated by Campbell Scott.

Beach House by Jane Green.  Narrated by Cassandra Campbell.

Unbroken by Laura Hillenbrand.  Narrated by Edward Herrman.

Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston. Narrated by Lynne Thigpen.









Querky things I remember:

  • “It’s a dog eat dog world and there ain’t enough dog to go around ” news cartoon/ 2005 in SF
  • ” They say God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle, but I don’t know what homeboy thinks my back is made of”  Elderly woman in documentary about terminal illness.
  • “Story about the housewife who cleaned everyday all day. She spent her life fighting dirt and when she passed away she was buried in dirt.”  Not sure where I heard this.
  • “That dog don’t hunt.”  Not sure.
  • If mama ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy”  Not sure.
  • “Shoot all extremists”  wall graffiti in Sebastopol, CA/1978.
  • “Little Crooked House”  Name of home-organization business/2010.
  • “We’re all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars”  Oscar Wilde
  • “Lets be frank with each other.”  My mother/ age 85 in 2006.
  • “Hair is a woman’s crowning glory.”  My dad when I was a teenager.
  • “Other people show me to myself.”  high school friend/ 1970?
  • The raw dialogue in the original Bad News Bears movie.  Long time ago.
  • The bathtub falling through the floor in the movie ‘The Money Pit”  “
  • The title of the movie “Throw Mama from the Train”                          “
  • How amazing Christian Bale was as a little kid in the movie “Empire of the Sun”  “